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[28 Nov 2006|12:48am] |
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i love how like, maybe five people see this. i post too many blogs on myspace. i should just fully rely on this... but i don't. haha.
it's midnight thirty seven and i have a literature SEOCT tomorrow. i'm not scurd. =]
my hair is so pretty and fluffy. i should have started blow drying it a looooooong time ago.
hmmn. i think i'm ready for another piercing. i want a monroe. or a lip ring. i haven't decided.
coffee would be amazing right now.
i am so good at this diet thing. no soda [[WATER only]], nothing fried, nothing that doesn't say "low fat" or "sugar free" on the label...
i feel like running... how out of character.
i wish i had a laptop. then i could write again without having people hovering over my shoulder. i have to write the old-fashioned way. pen and paper. gay.
i wish i had perfect vision. contacts are SUCH a pain in the behind.
and i want a Nintendo DS for Christmas. a pink one. with Super Mario 64 DS. =] why were Nintendo 64 game consoles called 64's? could have they picked a more random number?! honestly.
just once, i want to be MORE than a friend to a guy i actually wouldn't mind dating. why is that so hard for me to find?! other people find it like, seven times a year. and i've got zip. ahhhh fuuhk. i need a prom date. hmmm... i think i've got it. =] it shouldn't be a surprise to anybody.
Accepted is an amazing movie.
i decided i'm going to start practicing flute daily. b/c i need to.
aaaaaaaaaand... i'm done. thnx for wasting your time on my stupid unimportant thoughts.
-anastasia-
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[27 Oct 2006|02:39am] |
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i am a jerk. a big one. i've never felt this guilty in my entire LIFE. i should tattoo, "NEVER HOLD HANDS WITH A BOY" on the inside of my eyelids. it never leads to good... i'm so stupid. i want to hit my head on a brick wall multiple times.
the haunted house is cursed. i swear it is.
i hate how history repeats itself... especially right now. i could name several examples, but i won't.
the Haunted House was okay today. i had fun. ^_^ [[besides the disaterous part...]]
competition Saterday in Statesboro. the last one of the season.
my how marching season flew! ='[
ugh.
i'm going to go shoot myself.
laterz.
-anastasia-
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[20 Oct 2006|11:42pm] |
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so I went to Katie's sister's viewing today. Allison Disher. She was three. THREE. gahh. i was fine until i saw two things. Katie and Allison. i didn't cry loud. Dawn and CJ kept me from doing so. and then after i saw Ally, i went to the front room for a while. then Morgan showed up and it KILLED me. she told this story about Ally at her last birthday party, and that Morgan was hiding the remote from her and Ally didn't know where it was and she'd run all over the place looking for it... that made me cry the hardest.
i didn't even remember seeing her in person for the longest time...
until five minutes ago.
i saw Katie at Wal*Mart one day in winter last semester and we were walking around, trying to find Katie's mom. when we found her, she was in the girl's clothing department, and Ally was sitting in the cart. she said hi to me. that's all. "Hi Anastasia." she couldn't say my name right. not many 2-year-olds can.
i'm crying.
maybe it's a blessing in disguise. to bring the family together. that family has needed it. that's me and Dawn's theory, anyways...
on a LIGHTER note, we won the Homecoming game!!! the queen was Erika Payne, which made me happy because i really didn't care to see Emily win yet another thing. jeez.
the dance AND funeral are tomorrow. the funeral in the morning, Homecoming at night. what a day, huh?
but i'm excited. i've been wanting to dance so bad!!!!!!!
=]
well. i'm gonna go to bed. long day tomorrow.
laters!
♥anastasia♥
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| missing the old days... |
[17 Oct 2006|10:35pm] |
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man. i miss livejournal. so i'm gonna start it up again. hooray! so anyways. i was thinking earlier about how this year is so different from last year... it was so much better than it is now.
now all this bad stuff is happening.
Katie got in that horrible accident, lost her baby sister... i'm afraid that it will haunt her for years and years. i don't want her to be alone. =/
and the band is under new direction. oh man. i can't even begin to express those feelings.
i'm listening to Fall Out Boy and it's bringing everything back. that stupid fling i had with that stupid boy. the haunted house. when my friendship with my supposed best friend was REAL and GENUINE. before one of my only fully trusted friends left me for college. Guns n Roses. secretly talking to my sister behind my mom's back.
geez.
now i have 3 or 4 sophomores that i feel i can fully rely on. plus God. idk what i'd do without Lezlie, Dawn, Ama, or Jessica.
i just miss it. especially the part where i always had somebody to talk to. i need that right now more than you guys would ever know.
i'm HAPPIER and more confidnent than i was last year. so i don't really get this myself...
gahh.
well. laters.
-anastasia-
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| Writing... |
[20 Dec 2005|03:02am] |
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I've started writing again. I'm so excited. I had writer's block there for a WHILE. I love writing. It helps me channel things. Umm, I feel much better than I did earlier today... Yeah. I dunno why I'm updating, it's kinda useless.
I have FINALLY figured out how to work Myspace! YAY! It's really the most amazing thing EVER.
www.myspace.com/stasiaisrad
there it is. Well, i'll talk to u cool cats later... it's late.
Love, 'Stasia
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[18 Dec 2005|11:51pm] |
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I dunno why I'm bothering w/ this. I don't even wanna talk about recent events...
Spent the weekend w/ Morgan! What fun did we have in the mall w/ that camera! Haha!
Went to church too. For the 1st time since EASTER. I need God in some kind of bad way.
Later, 'Stasia
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| 24 hours...GONE |
[11 Dec 2005|09:27am] |
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Yesterday was a total waste of my life. I'll never get those 24 hours back. They're gone forever. I woke up at 7:45 (which is enough to piss me off, cuz once I'm fully awake, I cant fall back asleep) So, I just sat there and didn't have ANYTHING to do. I woulda talked to Morgan, but she was at DHB try-outs w/ Ryan and Jesse. So I ended up playing video games. Which pissed me off because my little brother was telling me what to do on every little thing... I wanted to hit him.
So then, in the midst of all this boring bullcrap, my grandma calls to tell me that her dog has to be put to sleep. Now, this is sad already, but add up the fact that this dog was (no lie) 17 years old (that's older than ME) and was like a second child to my grandma. *sigh* I don't really know what to say here...
So then my brother goes to basketball practice and I stayed at home. So then my stepdad comes back from dropping him off with food from McDonalds that's still sitting on the counter right now. I didn't eat anything yesterday. HAHA, and my stomach just growled!
So then, I have to go to work with my mom to sell popcorn. But we had to stop at Kroger to get 20 bags of kernels and 20 bottles of oil. I'm glad Sondra checked us out, b/c anyone else woulda thought we were nuts.
And then I get there, and I sit and read a book for 3 hours, and all of 6 people ever got popcorn. So then I left and the second I got home, I fell asleep.
That was my day. It's such crap. No kid can have a Saturday that boring but me. Oh well. Maybe today will be better... (Doubtful, but maybe.)
Later guys, 'Stasia
P.S.: I just remembered that exactly a year ago I was an emotional WRECK about leaving South. HA! I guess a LOT changes in a year! I'm glad they do!
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[03 Dec 2005|11:38pm] |
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Well, today was going to be long and boring, but it turned out to be awesome! We had a parade this morning... SO boring. I wanted to die. And I hate colorguard with a passion. Anyways, so some of my friends were at WinterFest this week and me and Morgan decided to go to their concert tonight. WHAT FUN!
So, after I spent 3 hours cleaning, I met Morgan after her basketball practice at EMS and we went to AASU, where the concert was. When we went into the auditorium, we saw some kid in a cowboy hat, and we didn't recognize him, but it turned out to be Adie! And then we started hanging out w/ him, Teil, Zac, Ryan, and Lauren. So then, after the AASU WE played, the "Honors band" or whatever the thing w/ the high schoolers in it was called performed. It was really good! And afterwards (after I talked to my best South friend, Olivia! ^.^) we decided to go to Applebee's. Good times in there... Good hysterical times. Even though we were joined by a former neighbor of mine who I never cared to be in the same room with after I moved... Actually, even when I still lived next door to her... Anyways, it was fun, even though Ryan was tired and he didn't talk very much. I hope he feels better! Well, I'll post again soon.
Love you guys, 'Stasia
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[30 Nov 2005|10:54pm] |
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Well. Yesterday i wasted 4 and a half hours of my life at the basketball game(s). Adie was totally trippin me out the whole time. It was fun! "JUST FOR MEN!" "HOBBIT!" "55!" Good times, Morgan. Lol. I hate it when there's like 3 weeks of school left. My classes are gonna suck next semester. And if Carter makes me drop back down to Symphonic Band, i swear to God i'll cry. I cant wait till that mother effer is gone. So, I went to church today. Fun fun fun. Ryan did homework the whole time, but somehow i wasn't bored. So then we go to El Ranchito's, Ryan drove me. Riding w/ him is always fun. Kinda like a roller coaster, really. Lol. So then we ate and Teil took me home. My life is SO eventful. I need to go Christmas shopping. I've got like 12 people to buy for, and $135 to do it w/. this is gonna be a challenge. But that's okay, i love challenges! Well, i gotta go. Later kids!
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[22 Nov 2005|10:10pm] |
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I hate this time of year. There's nothing to look forward to. I've been so bored lately. I despise holiday breaks. They really suck. I never get to see friends or have anything to do... I wanted to make t-shirts w/ Morgan, but of course that didn't work out. So tomorrow I'm working to earn $$$ for Christmas shopping, Thursday's a family dinner thing, Friday is shopping day, Saturday is go-to-Warner-Robins-to-vist-family day and then I leave Sunday night. What a rip. No fun there at all, except for Friday. I love Christmas shopping for people!!! Well, I guess I'll return to my boring life now...
Love, 'Stasia
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| New Family... |
[19 Nov 2005|11:47pm] |
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Let me start off by saying that parades are a total and complete waste of people's lives, nobody cares how we look in a parade, and Carter's is an effing arse and needs to be taken care of! With that said, I wasted the first 3 hours of my Saturday being cold, miserable and pissed off by people on colorguard, as usual. I have decided I'm marching trumpet next year b/c I can't take another year of all that estrogen and PMSing. I MISS BOYS!!!!!!!!! Lol.
So, after the parade I went home, took a shower, got dressed and spent the day with my wonderful father! Lol. I wish I could see him more, he's really cool. So, his girlfriend Katherine has two sons: Christian and Andrew. I FINALLY MET THEM TODAY!!! It's about time, condisering Dad and Kat have been dating for like, 6 months. They're really really awesome. I thought it was gonna be all awkward and stuff. I was WRONG! We went to eat at Olive Garden and we saw the 4th Harry Potter movie. (Which was a major dissappointment for me!!!) I'm at home now but I'm going back tomorrow for some odd reason.
Anyways, so now I'm sitting here, bored out of my mind, waiting for Ryan to call me from Indianapolis... Lol. Later guys!
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[16 Nov 2005|10:35pm] |
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I'm following in the footsteps of my best friend Morgana on this one... I went to revival tonight. It was amazing. I am a baptised Lutheran, but I go to a Lutheran church all of maybe 6 times a year. I have not been raised to be a religous person. And I hate it. I am so jealous of people and families that go to church regularly. I wish I could have the kind of connection with God that other people have... I mean, I pray every single night and all that jazz, but I feel like the only person in my family who does... who cares. It's weird, sometimes I pray for something really really tragic to happen in my family so maybe stuff will change and we'll start going. Is that wrong? It feels wrong... I don't know. I just had to get it off my chest. Well, I've been crying since I got home. But Morgan and Stephan helped a LOT (thanks guys! you rock!) So, I'm gonna follow Morgan's program as of now... JESUS LOVES YOU ALL!!!! Well, I'm gonna go now. Love you guys too!
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[15 Nov 2005|04:17pm] |
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You know the little clicks you hear climbing up the incline before you shoot down a roller coaster? Well, I think that the lock-in was my last click before my happiness level shot down. I dunno what happened. I'm bored outta my mind... I need stuff to do. This happens every single year after marching season is over with. There's nothing to do but worry about school and go Christmas shopping... Nothing to look forward to. I'm going to church again on Wednesday. FUN! And next week is Thanksgiving Holiday crap. I hate long breaks from school. I never get to see any of my friends... The new Harry Potter movie's coming out Friday! I've read all the books and this book has been out a WHILE, and it's my favorite one so I'm excited. My mom wants me to go w/ her, but I really wanna go with friends. (Olivia?!?!?!?!) Lol. Well, I'm gonna go now, seeing how I don't have anything interesting to say... Later!
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| The lock-in!*! |
[12 Nov 2005|07:00pm] |
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HEY GUYS!!! I HAVE HAD THE BEST WEEK EVER!!! I went to Morgan's lock-in Friday night. She had invited Zac and Ryan, but they were taking a long time to show up and then Merry tells us that they were still working. So me and Morgan got mad and sorta fell asleep and then, when I woke up, I saw Zac in the kitchen! We were relieved.
So, then we went midnight bowling. The ride there was fun. But then again, nothing is boring when Ryan and Zac are around. Anyways, I had fun bowling, even though I suck at it, but I ended up winning the 2nd game! I was really tired when I was there, though. I was happy when we left.
The ride back was odd. Merry was driving the expedition, with nobody in the passenger seat, Me and Ryan were in the middle row, and then, all crammed up in the back, was Jackie, Schmidt, Morgan and Zac. Nothing eventful here, except for Ryan and Zac make me laugh so much. They should be on Whose Line.
Lol. So, when we got back to the church we were all really tired, so we all got comfortable on the floor. Well, as comfy as we could get. Lol. We and ate cookie dough and they put the Goonies on. But I was too tired to get into it, even with Ryan quoting everything in my ear. But eventually, we fell asleep.
...it was couple night on the floor of Guyton United Methodist: James and Lindsay, Schmidt and Jackie, Morgan and Zac, and Ryan and me. In that order. I had the worst night's sleep ever... (If you wanna call it a "night's sleep".) I was on the very edge of everyone, and I didn't have a blanket. Ryan was already sharing w/ Zac, so he didn't have much to spare. So I slept in my jacket. It was rather miserable...
So I wake up at 7AM, to Fat Albert of all things, and I had to pee really bad but I really didn't feel like getting up so I just sat there a while and laughed to myself at how other people sleep. So, eventually I go to the bathroom and when I go to go out, Morgan was coming in. So we talked and then when we both went back out, that's when people started waking up. So, we spent like two hours just laying there, talking and goofing off. Me, Morgan, Ryan, Zac, and Merry were the last to leave. *sighs* I had fun w/ Ryan. I always do. He's awesome. Lol. And I know Morgan had fun w/ Zac... *HUGE SMILE*
I had spaghetti for lunch at Morgan's today. We talked and SLEPT the whole time I was over there. And now I'm at home... Bored outta my mind, needing some serious Nicorette. HAHAHA, Morgan!
Well, with that ends the best week of my life!!! Haha. I'll talk to you guys later. Love, 'Stasia.
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| Yet another good day... |
[09 Nov 2005|11:14pm] |
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I could really go on like this forever. I've had like, three good days in a row. (That would be a record!) Hmm... I completly bombed my scales test today, as expected. I'm gonna practice my butt off tomorrow and retake it Friday morning. I really miss Symphonic Band, but W.E. is funner like, people-wise, I think. Going home today was quite fun, but not. (I'm sorry Ryan!) I think we will look back on it and laugh, God knows I'll never forget it. And then me and Brittany went to church for the first time in forever. It's still fun. Go figure that. I like Ryan a lot... He was there and all... He makes me laugh... *Smiles* And then we played football outside and then my mom picked us up. It sounds uneventful, I guess you had to be there. Morgan is on freaking computer restriction and it sucks. Still can't wait till Friday! It's gonna rock. That's pretty much all that happened today. Later.
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[08 Nov 2005|11:35pm] |
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Today was the best day I've had in a WHILE. I lucked out of a scale test today, and we had a superduper cool sub 4th period. And then we went to the jazz concert thing-y at AASU. That was fun. The concert itself was kinda lame, but the bus rides there and back and the mall made the whole thing worth getting dressed up and giving up an afternoon. I sat w/ Ryan and Morgan on the way there. But on the way home, Zac and Ryan kinda got stuck under our seat and they stayed there the whole time. It was so funny! So then I came home and... Here I am. I'm going to church for the first time in forever tomorrow! I'm excited, I used to love going, but marching season kinda interrupted it. Well, I'm gonna go now... Later!
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[07 Nov 2005|08:45pm] |
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Well, my day started off really slow and stuff, but it got better! We had a stupid lock-down today. That's another hour w/ Farmer and her stupid self. I wanted to die. I got invited to Clay's birthday party, which is the same day as the lock-in. I think me and Morgan can arrange so we can go to both... I'm SO EXCITED about Friday! Lol. Me and Brittany got Clay a card w/ Disney Princesses all over it and a feather-y pen to match. It's gonna be hysterical. On our way back from Wal*Mart we ran into Teil, Ryan, and Zac on a 4-wheeler and they followed us to my house. It was pretty awkward. So... turns out that Ryan kinda sorta likes me, which is totally awesome considering I kinda sorta like him! I'm very happy. I hope he realizes he made my day. Well, that's pretty much all that's been going on with me. Later guys!
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[06 Nov 2005|09:26pm] |
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I guess I feel a little better today... But not much. We went to Bluffton and I got some stuff at Old Navy, which is my favorite store. My throat is absolutly killing me. I've been coughing all day, and living w/ two smokers doesn't help things. I hate it. I hope Morgan feels better, she was seriously bummed out Saturday night. Well, I guess I'd better go practice. We have a test in band on Tuesday over 5 scales and I'm going to fail and completly embarass myself... So I'm going to practice. Later.
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| I'm always right. |
[05 Nov 2005|07:32pm] |
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Well, the whole play-off thing sucked majorly. I love how I'm always right. The charter bus thing was so lame. If I had the chance to re-live last night I would most definatly pass it up. My half-sister, who I haven't seen since April, turned 4 today. She only lives in Savannah, which is why I guess it was tearing me up so bad yesterday... I actually started crying during our third quarter break because of it and people kept asking me what was wrong. I wanted to tell most of them to screw off, even my best friends. But I ended up telling Leslie, Clarissa, and Ryan anyways. It really sucks. All of this crap has really been getting to me lately, which is I guess why I started using this LiveJournal stuff. I hate being in a bad mood, I really do. But stuff just REALLY hasn't been going my way lately at ALL. Hopefully this Friday will fix some of it. I'm going to Morgan's lock-in thingy. *Sighs* I'm exhausted. Later, 'Stasia.
P.S.: I'm very very very sorry Morgan. I'm sorry I didn't tell you anything. I never really had the oppritunity and I was kinda pissed at you for a really really really petty reason.
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[03 Nov 2005|06:33pm] |
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Hello guys... *sighs* First entry-I'm afraid it's not gonna be anything special. Hmm... at band practice today we had to do 4 run-throughs of the show: one w/o seniors, one w/ just seniors, a regular one and one w/ just rookies, in which I made a complete ARSE of myself and showed the entire band that I have no dancing ability. Oh well, I'll get over it... eventually.
So tomorrow's this huge play-off away game. 5 1/2 hours on a bus with people I hate. (Well, not really hate, but I'd prefer to be with other people...) To West Georiga. Needless to say, I'm not looking forward to this. Except for in the unlikely event that I actually get switched to the other bus.
I'd really like to kill my Geometry teacher right about now. She's so lazy and has no clue what she's talking about. I'm failing her class at the moment. I should be practicing my God forsaken flute right now too... I'm going to go do that. Later guys.
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